So its that time of year again, Christmas celebrations, work parties and meals out with friends.
December is just a few days away and my Christmas tree will be let out of its box once again to delight and excite all who see it.
December and the Christmas period for me can be a fun and enjoyable time but also it can be really trying when it comes to living in recovery of an addiction to alcohol.
Alcohol and Celebrations go hand in hand so for me December is the worst month in my year! Not only do I have to deal with walking around city centre with the smell of hot mulled wine in the air but I then go home settle down to watch TV and then have to see most adverts glamorising stodgy foods and luxury wines, adverts are showing me how I can pour baileys into a hot cup of coffee or even better drizzle it over Christmas pudding…wish they would stop, its hard enough as it is.
December I also have 4 birthday celebrations, all close family members, so again its meals out for me surrounded by drink. I sometimes feel anger when I see people having fun drinking away, saying “lets have one more its Christmas” I mean I can cope with people having a drink around me, in fact I do it most weekends but there’s a certain point when the drinker goes beyond just a little tipsy and that I cant stand. I leave the party, I will leave peoples homes. I just start to get really uncomfortable. Its not because I am fearful that I will want to drink its just that I don’t have time for it! It may sound really bad of me but I cant help but sometimes feel annoyed at someone being a stupid drunk.
Even though its just over 2 and half years since my last drink this Christmas will be the 5th one I have not being drinking (2 out of 5 I was pregnant) I am looking forward to spending it at home with my husband and two boys. I don’t really want to be around everyone drinking now that my boys are getting older, Christmas should be for fun and laughter not drunken family rows and spewing up on boxing day from binge drinking the night before.
So this year I will do as I do every year and that is keep myself busy, keep using the gym for my stress and anxiety, meet up and talk to others in a similar situation to myself and enjoy everything that Christmas has to offer to someone in recovery.
I will be taking the boys to winter wonderland this year even though the smell of warm spiced cider can make me uneasy I will never let my children miss out on something because of my own reason… but luckily for me my little ones are a pretty good distraction anyway.
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